Requiem - Dies irae Chapter 14
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shivalriesSeason: Winter
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[Music Room]
Ritsu: ……
Mao: Hey, Ritsu~♪ Sorry for the wait! We can finally head home together, just as promised~!
But you know, I did say you could leave earlier~ I knew you’d end up staying late if you waited for me. You sure you’re not falling back into your old clingy ways?
Ritsu: ……
Mao: Phew… I knew things were gonna be busy, but still, being the student council president is tough work.
Well, I guess it’s too soon to say that... I haven’t completely taken over the role yet, so I’m still only doing about half the actual work.
But even then, it’s already a struggle. I’m worried about next year… What if I make a whole bunch of mistakes and have to resign immediately?
Ritsu: ……
Mao: …Hey, what’s up? It’d be nice to get some kinda response, you know? Are you mad ‘cause I made you wait so long, Ritsu?
Speaking of which, you mentioned wanting to talk about something on the way back home.
But considering how close we live to each other, we could just meet up after getting home. Or if it’s just a talk, we could even have it over the phone, can’t we?
Ritsu: …Mm~ For some reason it ticks me off seeing you this happy even though I’m in such a bad mood.
Mao: Huh? What’s wrong with that? I mean, if both of us start getting depressed, then it’d just be a downward spiral from there, right?
It’s better if at least one of us is happy, ‘cause then it’s easier to pick the other up and encourage each other, after all.
So if there’s something bothering you, then tell me, okay? What’s up? Your reliable childhood-friend-turned-StuCo-prez will have any problem solved for you in a snap~♪
Ritsu: …Mnn. Well, I did want you to fuss over me, but somehow that’s making me super mad today.
Mao: I just keep making you mad, huh. Sorry ‘bout that. Was I being annoying?
But you see, if I don’t act at least a little cocky, all these responsibilities might crush me, y’know! Ahahaha~ ♪
Anyway, enough about me.
Seriously, what’s wrong? Did something happen? I mean, it is graduation season, so it’d make sense if you’re feeling kinda sensitive.
For us in Trickstar and 2wink, all our members are in the same grade, so we’re pretty stable right now.
Other units, though, seem a little more shaky at the moment.
But from what I’ve heard, I thought Knights was doing pretty well.
In these past six months-- ever since Tsukinaga-senpai came back, it’s seemed like smooth sailing for you guys. Maybe some issues popped up here and there, but I always had the impression you took care of them all right away.
You guys applied early without a hitch for the upcoming Repayment Fes, after all, and that’s a pretty major event.
Even the president—I mean, Tenshouin-senpai thought your plan was pretty much perfect and gave it his seal of approval.
He even said he wished the other units would follow your example, you know?
Seems like Tenshouin-senpai and fine have been having trouble lately, too, so he’s been saying he’s jealous of you guys.
Haha, I’m still not used to calling him “Tenshouin-senpai”. It’s like, “senpai who?”
When you think of Yumenosaki’s student council president, he’s the first to come to mind, right? …I still haven’t really established my own presence at all yet.
Ritsu: Huh, that so? Though it’d be kinda creepy if you did have a presence, Ma~kun. You’re fine as you are.
Also, not that I really pay him any attention, but I have an idea why Ecchan’s feeling down these days. He kept complaining all through our tea club parties, after all.
Sounds like he brought it upon himself, though… But I guess it’s also an essential ritual.
Mao: Huh, a ritual? What do you mean?
Ritsu: I’m just saying… I tried to use a phrase from your beloved shounen manga, but I guess it doesn’t sound like it’d really work in reality, does it?
Mao: Huh…? Sorry, but I still don’t really get it!
Ritsu: You’re pretty dumb, Ma~kun.
No, wait, I guess being aware of your dumbness actually makes you smart.
At least way smarter than me, who acts like I know everything despite knowing nothing at all.
…Hey, Ma~kun. Y’know, lately, I’ve been getting this weird, uneasy feeling. It’s been making me scared and anxious, even giving me chills like I have a fever.
As Knights, we’ve really been plowing ahead these days. We’ve had a long winning streak in lives, and our reputation is growing bigger and bigger.
We’ve been getting a lot more fans, too, you know? Our future is bright.
And we’re all smiles when we get together, as if the brutal days of last year were all just a bad dream.
It’s been so peaceful and happy. It really feels like we’re all getting closer.
There’s nothing more I could want, and yet sometimes, I get scared. It makes me wonder if I’m making some kind of fatal mistake…
…and what if we’re actually heading toward collapse again, and maybe I just can’t see it, or refuse to see it.
I feel it in the air sometimes-- this weird friction. Plans that keep missing each other, conversations that seem a little off, things that aren’t being shared…
We all huddle together like we’re close, but somehow we’re still missing the mark.
It might seem like we’re all laughing about the same things, but if you look at us from afar, we seem fragmented…
We’re doing so well lately that it’s getting harder to pin down where this weird feeling is coming from.
If nothing big comes up, I do think we can avoid certain collapse…
And at least until Secchan and Ousama graduate and really leave, we can still spend a nice and pleasant time together, even if it seems like everything’s slowly falling apart.
But I just feel like we’ll end up regretting it…like a tragedy will suddenly strike us and make it all shatter to pieces. I’m… really scared.
It could even happen tomorrow-- That thought alone keeps me awake at night.
Hey, I’m overthinking it, right? I’m just being pessimistic because we’ve gone through too much pain already, right?
Tell me it’s true, Ma~kun…
We…Knights are gonna be okay, right? We won’t…fall apart again or something, right?
I don’t care if you have no proof or if you’re just saying it to be nice, just tell me it’s true…Ma~kun.
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< Dies irae Chapter 13 || Masterlist || Lux aeterna Chapter 1 >
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[Music Room]
Ritsu: ……
Mao: Hey, Ritsu~♪ Sorry for the wait! We can finally head home together, just as promised~!
But you know, I did say you could leave earlier~ I knew you’d end up staying late if you waited for me. You sure you’re not falling back into your old clingy ways?
Ritsu: ……
Mao: Phew… I knew things were gonna be busy, but still, being the student council president is tough work.
Well, I guess it’s too soon to say that... I haven’t completely taken over the role yet, so I’m still only doing about half the actual work.
But even then, it’s already a struggle. I’m worried about next year… What if I make a whole bunch of mistakes and have to resign immediately?
Ritsu: ……
Mao: …Hey, what’s up? It’d be nice to get some kinda response, you know? Are you mad ‘cause I made you wait so long, Ritsu?
Speaking of which, you mentioned wanting to talk about something on the way back home.
But considering how close we live to each other, we could just meet up after getting home. Or if it’s just a talk, we could even have it over the phone, can’t we?
Ritsu: …Mm~ For some reason it ticks me off seeing you this happy even though I’m in such a bad mood.
Mao: Huh? What’s wrong with that? I mean, if both of us start getting depressed, then it’d just be a downward spiral from there, right?
It’s better if at least one of us is happy, ‘cause then it’s easier to pick the other up and encourage each other, after all.
So if there’s something bothering you, then tell me, okay? What’s up? Your reliable childhood-friend-turned-StuCo-prez will have any problem solved for you in a snap~♪
Ritsu: …Mnn. Well, I did want you to fuss over me, but somehow that’s making me super mad today.
Mao: I just keep making you mad, huh. Sorry ‘bout that. Was I being annoying?
But you see, if I don’t act at least a little cocky, all these responsibilities might crush me, y’know! Ahahaha~ ♪
Anyway, enough about me.
Seriously, what’s wrong? Did something happen? I mean, it is graduation season, so it’d make sense if you’re feeling kinda sensitive.
For us in Trickstar and 2wink, all our members are in the same grade, so we’re pretty stable right now.
Other units, though, seem a little more shaky at the moment.
But from what I’ve heard, I thought Knights was doing pretty well.
In these past six months-- ever since Tsukinaga-senpai came back, it’s seemed like smooth sailing for you guys. Maybe some issues popped up here and there, but I always had the impression you took care of them all right away.
You guys applied early without a hitch for the upcoming Repayment Fes, after all, and that’s a pretty major event.
Even the president—I mean, Tenshouin-senpai thought your plan was pretty much perfect and gave it his seal of approval.
He even said he wished the other units would follow your example, you know?
Seems like Tenshouin-senpai and fine have been having trouble lately, too, so he’s been saying he’s jealous of you guys.
Haha, I’m still not used to calling him “Tenshouin-senpai”. It’s like, “senpai who?”
When you think of Yumenosaki’s student council president, he’s the first to come to mind, right? …I still haven’t really established my own presence at all yet.
Ritsu: Huh, that so? Though it’d be kinda creepy if you did have a presence, Ma~kun. You’re fine as you are.
Also, not that I really pay him any attention, but I have an idea why Ecchan’s feeling down these days. He kept complaining all through our tea club parties, after all.
Sounds like he brought it upon himself, though… But I guess it’s also an essential ritual.
Mao: Huh, a ritual? What do you mean?
Ritsu: I’m just saying… I tried to use a phrase from your beloved shounen manga, but I guess it doesn’t sound like it’d really work in reality, does it?
Mao: Huh…? Sorry, but I still don’t really get it!
Ritsu: You’re pretty dumb, Ma~kun.
No, wait, I guess being aware of your dumbness actually makes you smart.
At least way smarter than me, who acts like I know everything despite knowing nothing at all.
…Hey, Ma~kun. Y’know, lately, I’ve been getting this weird, uneasy feeling. It’s been making me scared and anxious, even giving me chills like I have a fever.
As Knights, we’ve really been plowing ahead these days. We’ve had a long winning streak in lives, and our reputation is growing bigger and bigger.
We’ve been getting a lot more fans, too, you know? Our future is bright.
And we’re all smiles when we get together, as if the brutal days of last year were all just a bad dream.
It’s been so peaceful and happy. It really feels like we’re all getting closer.
There’s nothing more I could want, and yet sometimes, I get scared. It makes me wonder if I’m making some kind of fatal mistake…
…and what if we’re actually heading toward collapse again, and maybe I just can’t see it, or refuse to see it.
I feel it in the air sometimes-- this weird friction. Plans that keep missing each other, conversations that seem a little off, things that aren’t being shared…
We all huddle together like we’re close, but somehow we’re still missing the mark.
It might seem like we’re all laughing about the same things, but if you look at us from afar, we seem fragmented…
We’re doing so well lately that it’s getting harder to pin down where this weird feeling is coming from.
If nothing big comes up, I do think we can avoid certain collapse…
And at least until Secchan and Ousama graduate and really leave, we can still spend a nice and pleasant time together, even if it seems like everything’s slowly falling apart.
But I just feel like we’ll end up regretting it…like a tragedy will suddenly strike us and make it all shatter to pieces. I’m… really scared.
It could even happen tomorrow-- That thought alone keeps me awake at night.
Hey, I’m overthinking it, right? I’m just being pessimistic because we’ve gone through too much pain already, right?
Tell me it’s true, Ma~kun…
We…Knights are gonna be okay, right? We won’t…fall apart again or something, right?
I don’t care if you have no proof or if you’re just saying it to be nice, just tell me it’s true…Ma~kun.
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< Dies irae Chapter 13 || Masterlist || Lux aeterna Chapter 1 >
