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shivalriesSeason: Autumn
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[euthanasia Stage]
Tsukasa: ...Narukami-senpai and the others are giving quite the performance, aren't they?
Leo: Mm? Yeah! They're always the best! Wahaha! ☆
Makes me feel like an idiot for thinking I could take on you four all alone way back when! There's a fine line between bravery and stupidity, huh...!
Tsukasa: You had no intention to win at all, though, if I'm not mistaken? Upon the stage of that Judgment, where we understood each other for the very first time?
You provoked us into waging a duel with you, all to make us execute you once and for all. If you were so determined to make that happen, you needn't have gone out of your way to employ a band of mock-mercenary scoundrels to run rampant with you—
You could have easily crushed us Knights if you had asked Tenshouin Onii-sama to do it, for example.
There were plenty of simpler methods to achieve your goal, if that was indeed what you were after.
And yet, you purposefully put yourself in harm's way, staring down the blade before you. That's how you always are—you willingly take the short end of the stick.
Leo: Huh, what're you talking about? That was ages ago! I don't remember!
Tsukasa: Please don't forget about it. ...Ah, it has been a long while since I last told you that, hasn't it? It certainly brings me back.
Heh, as I stand here and watch my seniors from the wings, I recall doing this very same thing during Judgment.
Back then, it wasn't you but Anzu Onee-sama who stood by my side.
Leo: Still calling her "Onee-sama," huh...
What's that about? Four Onii-chans ain't enough for you? Eh, I can understand that~ I feel my heart slowly dying away every day I'm away from Ruka-tan.
Ah, maybe that's why I've been in kind of a slump lately?!
I've barely even called her! I thought it'd be annoying if I contacted her too much, and I hear international rates are pretty expensive anyway.
Tsukasa: Hehe. And those of us who are supposed to fill the lonely void in your heart are instead having this unseemly little conflict, as you can see.
We've been so full of our problems, we haven't stopped to think about you—
Leo: Wahaha! I don't mind, though! That's what I love about you guys!
...Honestly, I'd give up literally anything for you guys. That feeling hasn't changed all this time.
Also... I don't care what you do with what I give you.
If I'm able to provide something to the people I love when they want it, then that's all I need to be happy.
That's all, but... it can mess things up, too... Like with the Chess people, and recently that GFK guy.
Feels like... if I give away everything for free, it screws up people's sense of value...
They go a lil' crazy, I guess...? And before I know it, everything comes crashing down.
Tsukasa: What do you suppose you are? An ancient god who can twist humanity's destiny as he wishes?
Leo: Whaaa~? I just like people, okay~?
I'm not a god, and I'm not even the King anymore, y'know. I'm just a normal human being with a little sprinkle of genius.
Just a person who wants to be loved, who can't survive all by himself.
But my genius lets me create exactly what everyone wants, and y'know, they're always so happy to get it—
Seeing the smiles on their faces made me feel loved, and that was enough for me.
I lost trust in that love, once upon a time. And the moment I started to doubt it once, everything started looking suspicious. It took the ground out from underneath my feet.
At the very end, I ended up going around asking things like, "Is this really love you're giving me?" and totally embarrassed myself...
Of course my hopes were betrayed. It as a complete disaster.
So then I clung onto Sena, the only person I thought loved me for me instead of my music, but we ended up crashing down together.
We've both gotten older already, though. I can't just throw all my weight on him like a baby, right. Gotta rethink that.
Tsukasa: You seem fairly reliant on Sena-senpai in your daily life now, though—are you doing alright?
I don't know all the details, but you're being quite thoroughly managed, are you not?
Leo: Yeah, that! All he ever does is nag me about the teeniest details of my life! I'm sick of it! I'm starting to think about moving out!
Tsukasa: If that's the case, then you shouldn't have said you want to live together in the first place.
Leo: But for all the annoying stuff, there's that much more happiness! I mean, despite Sena being so stuck on trying to cradle me like a little baby—
I'm still nabbing jobs for him, and when he gets all tuckered out, I hold him back! So we're good!
If he eventually grows to accept that, then I think we can live together with just the right balance, without putting too much of a burden on each other.
So I'm gonna stick it out a little longer and watch how it goes. It might look like we're just repeating the past, but we've gone through it all already.
I wanna think we won't ever make the same mistake again. I can't say for sure, though~ I'm not God, so I can't predict the future.
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< Until the Morning Light Chapter 10 || Masterlist || Until the Morning Light Chapter 12 >
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[euthanasia Stage]
Tsukasa: ...Narukami-senpai and the others are giving quite the performance, aren't they?
Leo: Mm? Yeah! They're always the best! Wahaha! ☆
Makes me feel like an idiot for thinking I could take on you four all alone way back when! There's a fine line between bravery and stupidity, huh...!
Tsukasa: You had no intention to win at all, though, if I'm not mistaken? Upon the stage of that Judgment, where we understood each other for the very first time?
You provoked us into waging a duel with you, all to make us execute you once and for all. If you were so determined to make that happen, you needn't have gone out of your way to employ a band of mock-mercenary scoundrels to run rampant with you—
You could have easily crushed us Knights if you had asked Tenshouin Onii-sama to do it, for example.
There were plenty of simpler methods to achieve your goal, if that was indeed what you were after.
And yet, you purposefully put yourself in harm's way, staring down the blade before you. That's how you always are—you willingly take the short end of the stick.
Leo: Huh, what're you talking about? That was ages ago! I don't remember!
Tsukasa: Please don't forget about it. ...Ah, it has been a long while since I last told you that, hasn't it? It certainly brings me back.
Heh, as I stand here and watch my seniors from the wings, I recall doing this very same thing during Judgment.
Back then, it wasn't you but Anzu Onee-sama who stood by my side.
Leo: Still calling her "Onee-sama," huh...
What's that about? Four Onii-chans ain't enough for you? Eh, I can understand that~ I feel my heart slowly dying away every day I'm away from Ruka-tan.
Ah, maybe that's why I've been in kind of a slump lately?!
I've barely even called her! I thought it'd be annoying if I contacted her too much, and I hear international rates are pretty expensive anyway.
Tsukasa: Hehe. And those of us who are supposed to fill the lonely void in your heart are instead having this unseemly little conflict, as you can see.
We've been so full of our problems, we haven't stopped to think about you—
Leo: Wahaha! I don't mind, though! That's what I love about you guys!
...Honestly, I'd give up literally anything for you guys. That feeling hasn't changed all this time.
Also... I don't care what you do with what I give you.
If I'm able to provide something to the people I love when they want it, then that's all I need to be happy.
That's all, but... it can mess things up, too... Like with the Chess people, and recently that GFK guy.
Feels like... if I give away everything for free, it screws up people's sense of value...
They go a lil' crazy, I guess...? And before I know it, everything comes crashing down.
Tsukasa: What do you suppose you are? An ancient god who can twist humanity's destiny as he wishes?
Leo: Whaaa~? I just like people, okay~?
I'm not a god, and I'm not even the King anymore, y'know. I'm just a normal human being with a little sprinkle of genius.
Just a person who wants to be loved, who can't survive all by himself.
But my genius lets me create exactly what everyone wants, and y'know, they're always so happy to get it—
Seeing the smiles on their faces made me feel loved, and that was enough for me.
I lost trust in that love, once upon a time. And the moment I started to doubt it once, everything started looking suspicious. It took the ground out from underneath my feet.
At the very end, I ended up going around asking things like, "Is this really love you're giving me?" and totally embarrassed myself...
Of course my hopes were betrayed. It as a complete disaster.
So then I clung onto Sena, the only person I thought loved me for me instead of my music, but we ended up crashing down together.
We've both gotten older already, though. I can't just throw all my weight on him like a baby, right. Gotta rethink that.
Tsukasa: You seem fairly reliant on Sena-senpai in your daily life now, though—are you doing alright?
I don't know all the details, but you're being quite thoroughly managed, are you not?
Leo: Yeah, that! All he ever does is nag me about the teeniest details of my life! I'm sick of it! I'm starting to think about moving out!
Tsukasa: If that's the case, then you shouldn't have said you want to live together in the first place.
Leo: But for all the annoying stuff, there's that much more happiness! I mean, despite Sena being so stuck on trying to cradle me like a little baby—
I'm still nabbing jobs for him, and when he gets all tuckered out, I hold him back! So we're good!
If he eventually grows to accept that, then I think we can live together with just the right balance, without putting too much of a burden on each other.
So I'm gonna stick it out a little longer and watch how it goes. It might look like we're just repeating the past, but we've gone through it all already.
I wanna think we won't ever make the same mistake again. I can't say for sure, though~ I'm not God, so I can't predict the future.
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< Until the Morning Light Chapter 10 || Masterlist || Until the Morning Light Chapter 12 >
