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shivalriesSeason: Autumn, one year ago
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[Hallway]
Leo: You think I’m just gonna say, “Oh wait, sorry, you didn’t do anything wrong. Let’s make up, Sena”?
Well actually, yeah, it’s your fault… all of it! You know, all I wanted to do was to fulfill your dreams!
Since you were the only one who wanted to hear my songs anymore, after all!
Everyone else just brought darkness and pain! If I don’t have your smile shining before my eyes, cheerful songs are impossible for me!
But we’ve been losing all the time lately, and you keep getting mad because of your hurt pride!
Even you -- the one, single light that reached me! And now even you’ve been tainted with hatred, but you still think I can write happy songs…?!
I’ve reached my limit, you know! Enough messing around, smile for my sake already!
You’re the only one I need! If you can’t even do that for me, I’ll… I’ll fall apart! I’ll be rusted and useless and covered in scratches!
And all because you wouldn’t be the sheath to protect me!
Izumi: What are you even talking about? I mean, it’s true that lately I’ve been lashing out a lot, but still…?
There’s no way I can smile in this situation, right? Are you just feeding off me to sustain your composing or something?
And now you’re even complaining I’ve lost my flavor? Who do you think you are? I’m not your slave or your food… Actually, you know what? I’ve always wanted to say this to you.
But I never did! Even though I was just being used by some idiot composer who wouldn’t even treat me like a human! And I pretended not to notice, I just looked away—
All because you were my friend. Someone equal to me, someone important, my very first—
Leo: Oh, so you actually did like me a little? That’s the first I’ve heard of it! Tell me sooner!
Even though it wouldn’t have made a difference in how everything turned out in the end. It was just a matter of when, right?
We’re over! It’s a waste to talk about strategies now - there’s just no point! This game of chess is at a stalemate!
You know the reason we keep losing, right? It’s as simple as basic math!
It’s because we keep randomly firing out Judgments and Duels, so as Knights all we do is invite resentment from all sides!
And since DreamFes are decided by the audience’s votes, that’s why we can’t get any points!
DreamFes audiences are mostly made up of people from school, after all. All those guys we trampled over and crushed now hate us!
It’s just meaningless no matter what masterpieces I make! Those guys will always come in assuming we’re some terrible, hateful lot!
No song will reach their ears or their hearts! Not even their brains! No one will ever love us! This keeps happening over and over and I can’t take it anymore! Everything’s over, all of it!
Izumi: ...And you want to say the fact we got driven into this corner is also my fault...?
Leo: Isn’t it? This is what you wanted! I was just happy having fun singing with everyone!
It’s because you had eyes only for the top! Because you wanted to strut around and massacre everyone you didn’t like!
So I tried to make a path for you! The only thing I can do is compose, so I put my whole heart into that! And this is what happened! We couldn’t get there!
In fact, I wish we never dreamed in the first place! Sorry, Sena! I’m just weak!
I thought that if I made some amazing masterpiece, it would move even those guys who hate us, and maybe they’d come to like us!
But they didn’t! I couldn’t manage it... I was never a genius!
Even though you believed in me, even though you loved me, I couldn’t do anything at alllll!
Izumi: ...Leo-kun.
Leo: I-I’m going home! ‘Cause I dunno what I’m even saying anymore! Sorry, Sena! Forget everything I said - the king’s orders are absolute!
Izumi: Wait, don’t you hate being called that?
Leo: ……
Izumi: Are you listening? Heeey, look, I said too much as well! I’ll apologize, so let’s talk it out properly, okay? Hey, do you hear me? Leo-kun…?
[Music Room]
Ritsu: (Ahh, right. I listened in on their conversation from within the music room.)
(At the time, I didn’t really understand what it was all about.)
(They only called me over for Knights lives sometimes… I wasn’t that close to them. I was just a work acquaintance, after all.)
(No, I was scared of stepping in… even though the thin door of the music room could’ve been easily opened with just the slightest push of a finger.)
(But to me, it felt heavier than steel. I couldn’t move it even a single millimeter.)
(I was shaking like an idiot. I was just like a small child left to watch the house alone, helplessly waiting for his nice family to come back.)
(Hey, have I managed to grow up since then, even a little? Am I moving forward? If it were the present me, could I have opened this door?)
(Would something change? Could someone like me, who was once just like a living corpse, be able to do something like that?)
(I have no idea. But now, I’m wishing I could.)
(After all, I don’t want this to happen ever again.)
(Oniichan. Even if it only hurts me in the end, I want to get involved with everyone too.)
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[Hallway]
Leo: You think I’m just gonna say, “Oh wait, sorry, you didn’t do anything wrong. Let’s make up, Sena”?
Well actually, yeah, it’s your fault… all of it! You know, all I wanted to do was to fulfill your dreams!
Since you were the only one who wanted to hear my songs anymore, after all!
Everyone else just brought darkness and pain! If I don’t have your smile shining before my eyes, cheerful songs are impossible for me!
But we’ve been losing all the time lately, and you keep getting mad because of your hurt pride!
Even you -- the one, single light that reached me! And now even you’ve been tainted with hatred, but you still think I can write happy songs…?!
I’ve reached my limit, you know! Enough messing around, smile for my sake already!
You’re the only one I need! If you can’t even do that for me, I’ll… I’ll fall apart! I’ll be rusted and useless and covered in scratches!
And all because you wouldn’t be the sheath to protect me!
Izumi: What are you even talking about? I mean, it’s true that lately I’ve been lashing out a lot, but still…?
There’s no way I can smile in this situation, right? Are you just feeding off me to sustain your composing or something?
And now you’re even complaining I’ve lost my flavor? Who do you think you are? I’m not your slave or your food… Actually, you know what? I’ve always wanted to say this to you.
But I never did! Even though I was just being used by some idiot composer who wouldn’t even treat me like a human! And I pretended not to notice, I just looked away—
All because you were my friend. Someone equal to me, someone important, my very first—
Leo: Oh, so you actually did like me a little? That’s the first I’ve heard of it! Tell me sooner!
Even though it wouldn’t have made a difference in how everything turned out in the end. It was just a matter of when, right?
We’re over! It’s a waste to talk about strategies now - there’s just no point! This game of chess is at a stalemate!
You know the reason we keep losing, right? It’s as simple as basic math!
It’s because we keep randomly firing out Judgments and Duels, so as Knights all we do is invite resentment from all sides!
And since DreamFes are decided by the audience’s votes, that’s why we can’t get any points!
DreamFes audiences are mostly made up of people from school, after all. All those guys we trampled over and crushed now hate us!
It’s just meaningless no matter what masterpieces I make! Those guys will always come in assuming we’re some terrible, hateful lot!
No song will reach their ears or their hearts! Not even their brains! No one will ever love us! This keeps happening over and over and I can’t take it anymore! Everything’s over, all of it!
Izumi: ...And you want to say the fact we got driven into this corner is also my fault...?
Leo: Isn’t it? This is what you wanted! I was just happy having fun singing with everyone!
It’s because you had eyes only for the top! Because you wanted to strut around and massacre everyone you didn’t like!
So I tried to make a path for you! The only thing I can do is compose, so I put my whole heart into that! And this is what happened! We couldn’t get there!
In fact, I wish we never dreamed in the first place! Sorry, Sena! I’m just weak!
I thought that if I made some amazing masterpiece, it would move even those guys who hate us, and maybe they’d come to like us!
But they didn’t! I couldn’t manage it... I was never a genius!
Even though you believed in me, even though you loved me, I couldn’t do anything at alllll!
Izumi: ...Leo-kun.
Leo: I-I’m going home! ‘Cause I dunno what I’m even saying anymore! Sorry, Sena! Forget everything I said - the king’s orders are absolute!
Izumi: Wait, don’t you hate being called that?
Leo: ……
Izumi: Are you listening? Heeey, look, I said too much as well! I’ll apologize, so let’s talk it out properly, okay? Hey, do you hear me? Leo-kun…?
[Music Room]
Ritsu: (Ahh, right. I listened in on their conversation from within the music room.)
(At the time, I didn’t really understand what it was all about.)
(They only called me over for Knights lives sometimes… I wasn’t that close to them. I was just a work acquaintance, after all.)
(No, I was scared of stepping in… even though the thin door of the music room could’ve been easily opened with just the slightest push of a finger.)
(But to me, it felt heavier than steel. I couldn’t move it even a single millimeter.)
(I was shaking like an idiot. I was just like a small child left to watch the house alone, helplessly waiting for his nice family to come back.)
(Hey, have I managed to grow up since then, even a little? Am I moving forward? If it were the present me, could I have opened this door?)
(Would something change? Could someone like me, who was once just like a living corpse, be able to do something like that?)
(I have no idea. But now, I’m wishing I could.)
(After all, I don’t want this to happen ever again.)
(Oniichan. Even if it only hurts me in the end, I want to get involved with everyone too.)
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