![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shivalriesSeason: Autumn
---
[School Building: Back]
Makoto: (……)
(…What was that all about? Was that person... was Tsukinaga-senpai saying all of that for real? Did he really mean to apologize?)
(Was he just speaking honestly, with absolutely no ill intentions?)
(If that’s the case… Then that really pisses me off.)
(He didn’t even show up until now! He was gone this whole time, and now he’s acting like he doesn’t care what happens to Yumenosaki or his past friends.)
(He doesn’t even know a thing about us.)
Izumi: Yuu-kuuuuuuuuun…!
Makoto: Hwah?! Ah, wha? Eeeeek?!
Izumi: Why are you acting like you’ve just seen a ghost, Yuu-kun? Are you okay? Did he say anything awful to you?
Makoto: Uh, um? Uhh…? He... who?
Izumi: Our Ousama! Weren’t you talking with him just now?
I stayed around for Knights practice and meetings and was just about to head home, but… I thought I heard some voices, you see?
Makoto: …Tsukinaga-senpai’s voice?
Izumi: Yeah, and your voice too, Yuu-kun! I wondered what was going on, and I felt really uneasy so I came to check on you, yeah? Are you okay? Did he do anything to you? Are you hurt anywhere?
Makoto: Wha… Hey, don’t go trying to hug me! Ugh, look, my glasses fell off!
Izumi: Sorry! But I was just so worried, you know…?
Makoto: Worried... about what?
Izumi: Huh? No, I just… I thought maybe our Ousama did something horrible to you?
He’s snapped before, see, so we don’t really know what he might end up doing.
Before he was suspended, he caused a lot of incidents like he’d just lost his mind… He’s dangerous, so don’t be fooled by his cute face!
Makoto: Why are you saying things like that? Wasn’t Tsukinaga-senpai someone important to you, Izumi-san?
Izumi: Wha? Well, in the past, yeah?
Makoto: …But not anymore?
Izumi: Huh? What’s wrong, Yuu-kun? Are you mad about something? Ahh, so he really did say something awful to you, huh?
Wait right here, Oniichan will go give that idiot an earful!
Makoto: You’re… not my Oniichan, you know.
After all, I was just a stand-in for Tsukinaga-senpai, right? So could you not act like we’re family?
Izumi: What? Is that what that guy said? Who the hell does he think he is? Does he seriously still believe he’s important to me?
Even though any sentiments I had for him are long gone!
Makoto: ……
Izumi: Now Yuu-kun’s a hundred times more important! I’m on your side, Yuu-kun, so don’t worry! Oniichan will protect you, just like he used to!
Makoto: Izumi-san.
Izumi: Mmm? What is it, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: I’ve always wanted to say this, but… I never managed to because I couldn’t work up the courage.
Even though I helped everyone start a revolution with our victory in DDD, even though we did pretty well in other gigs like Starmine… even though we’ve already done so much…
I always felt like I was just leeching the benefits from hanging around them… Like the other members of Trickstar are all so amazing, and I was just riding on their coattails to success.
I felt like I as always falling behind,and the only reason I could shine was because I was next to them.
You said it many times, too, Izumi-san. You said I don’t have talent, that I’m not suited to be an idol.
Those words stuck somewhere inside my mind, and in the end I wound up thinking it was true.
Izumi: What are you talking about? Sorry, I guess you were hurt by what I said? But honestly, I do think you’re more suited to be a model than an idol, though, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: Is that really true? Isn’t that just what you want to believe?
Izumi: Huh…? Say, why are you acting so distant right now? You can be more casual when we’re alone, you know? You sound so cold, it makes me sad!
Makoto: Oh, yeah? So in the end, you treated me like some stuffed animal to love, all just because you were sad… isn’t that right, Izumi-san?
Izumi: Uh? What do you mean? Seriously, why are you so angry, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: It’s all your fault.
Izumi: ……Huh?
Makoto: You put me down so many times, treated me like I was helpless… and because of that I wound up only ever thinking I was lagging behind everyone else.
I mean, back when we were kid models, everything you said was always correct, Izumi-san.
You were in a higher position than me, you had more talent, and you had all that experience… You were a senior I could really respect.
I could say that and believe in it without any doubt. But I’m not a model anymore – I’m an idol. Are you sure you understand that, Izumi-san?
You’re always acting like you’re above me, pretending you’re my Oniichan and taking care of me and all. Compared to when we were models, is there that much of a difference between you and me right now?
Trickstar and Knights are equal rivals.
I know it’s not us but our units as a whole, but there really isn’t that much of a difference in how we’re seen by the public. We’re about the same, on a level playing field.
And yet, why do you keep believing there’s some overwhelmingly huge difference in ability between us, Izumi-san?
Izumi: …Huh?!
Makoto: I mean, if you don’t think you’re solidly above someone else, you can’t pretend you know better keep insisting things like “I’ll teach you” or “I’ll protect you”, right?
You’re making a fool out of me, and looking down on me completely, Izumi-san.
Izumi: Um? No I’m not, you really are important to me, Yuu-kun…?
Makoto: Oh, really? But being so coddled can ruin anyone!
I wanted to really grow, I wanted to catch up to everyone… I wanted to shine, just like everyone else in Trickstar.
But you pushed my head down and kept me in the dark, insisting it was just to protect me.
Izumi: …Is that how you felt about it, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: Nope. It’s only now that I’ve noticed it’s all your fault I couldn’t shine.
Izumi: Yuu-kun, are you going to make it all my fault as well…?
Makoto: I just figured you would never get it unless I told you to your face. It’s a crucial time for Trickstar right now. Right in front of us is a huge event of unprecedented scale… SS.
I have to change too. I have to grow, way more than I ever have.
And to do that, I’ve got to break the curse you put on me.
Izumi: ……
Makoto: Izumi-san, I’ll ask you once more. Do you really think that I’m just your powerless “younger brother”?
That I’m some weak, precious little thing that you have to protect?
Hey… can you really still say that you’re above me?
---
< NIGHTMARE Chapter 9 || Masterlist || HARLEQUIN Chapter 1 >
---
[School Building: Back]
Makoto: (……)
(…What was that all about? Was that person... was Tsukinaga-senpai saying all of that for real? Did he really mean to apologize?)
(Was he just speaking honestly, with absolutely no ill intentions?)
(If that’s the case… Then that really pisses me off.)
(He didn’t even show up until now! He was gone this whole time, and now he’s acting like he doesn’t care what happens to Yumenosaki or his past friends.)
(He doesn’t even know a thing about us.)
Izumi: Yuu-kuuuuuuuuun…!
Makoto: Hwah?! Ah, wha? Eeeeek?!
Izumi: Why are you acting like you’ve just seen a ghost, Yuu-kun? Are you okay? Did he say anything awful to you?
Makoto: Uh, um? Uhh…? He... who?
Izumi: Our Ousama! Weren’t you talking with him just now?
I stayed around for Knights practice and meetings and was just about to head home, but… I thought I heard some voices, you see?
Makoto: …Tsukinaga-senpai’s voice?
Izumi: Yeah, and your voice too, Yuu-kun! I wondered what was going on, and I felt really uneasy so I came to check on you, yeah? Are you okay? Did he do anything to you? Are you hurt anywhere?
Makoto: Wha… Hey, don’t go trying to hug me! Ugh, look, my glasses fell off!
Izumi: Sorry! But I was just so worried, you know…?
Makoto: Worried... about what?
Izumi: Huh? No, I just… I thought maybe our Ousama did something horrible to you?
He’s snapped before, see, so we don’t really know what he might end up doing.
Before he was suspended, he caused a lot of incidents like he’d just lost his mind… He’s dangerous, so don’t be fooled by his cute face!
Makoto: Why are you saying things like that? Wasn’t Tsukinaga-senpai someone important to you, Izumi-san?
Izumi: Wha? Well, in the past, yeah?
Makoto: …But not anymore?
Izumi: Huh? What’s wrong, Yuu-kun? Are you mad about something? Ahh, so he really did say something awful to you, huh?
Wait right here, Oniichan will go give that idiot an earful!
Makoto: You’re… not my Oniichan, you know.
After all, I was just a stand-in for Tsukinaga-senpai, right? So could you not act like we’re family?
Izumi: What? Is that what that guy said? Who the hell does he think he is? Does he seriously still believe he’s important to me?
Even though any sentiments I had for him are long gone!
Makoto: ……
Izumi: Now Yuu-kun’s a hundred times more important! I’m on your side, Yuu-kun, so don’t worry! Oniichan will protect you, just like he used to!
Makoto: Izumi-san.
Izumi: Mmm? What is it, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: I’ve always wanted to say this, but… I never managed to because I couldn’t work up the courage.
Even though I helped everyone start a revolution with our victory in DDD, even though we did pretty well in other gigs like Starmine… even though we’ve already done so much…
I always felt like I was just leeching the benefits from hanging around them… Like the other members of Trickstar are all so amazing, and I was just riding on their coattails to success.
I felt like I as always falling behind,and the only reason I could shine was because I was next to them.
You said it many times, too, Izumi-san. You said I don’t have talent, that I’m not suited to be an idol.
Those words stuck somewhere inside my mind, and in the end I wound up thinking it was true.
Izumi: What are you talking about? Sorry, I guess you were hurt by what I said? But honestly, I do think you’re more suited to be a model than an idol, though, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: Is that really true? Isn’t that just what you want to believe?
Izumi: Huh…? Say, why are you acting so distant right now? You can be more casual when we’re alone, you know? You sound so cold, it makes me sad!
Makoto: Oh, yeah? So in the end, you treated me like some stuffed animal to love, all just because you were sad… isn’t that right, Izumi-san?
Izumi: Uh? What do you mean? Seriously, why are you so angry, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: It’s all your fault.
Izumi: ……Huh?
Makoto: You put me down so many times, treated me like I was helpless… and because of that I wound up only ever thinking I was lagging behind everyone else.
I mean, back when we were kid models, everything you said was always correct, Izumi-san.
You were in a higher position than me, you had more talent, and you had all that experience… You were a senior I could really respect.
I could say that and believe in it without any doubt. But I’m not a model anymore – I’m an idol. Are you sure you understand that, Izumi-san?
You’re always acting like you’re above me, pretending you’re my Oniichan and taking care of me and all. Compared to when we were models, is there that much of a difference between you and me right now?
Trickstar and Knights are equal rivals.
I know it’s not us but our units as a whole, but there really isn’t that much of a difference in how we’re seen by the public. We’re about the same, on a level playing field.
And yet, why do you keep believing there’s some overwhelmingly huge difference in ability between us, Izumi-san?
Izumi: …Huh?!
Makoto: I mean, if you don’t think you’re solidly above someone else, you can’t pretend you know better keep insisting things like “I’ll teach you” or “I’ll protect you”, right?
You’re making a fool out of me, and looking down on me completely, Izumi-san.
Izumi: Um? No I’m not, you really are important to me, Yuu-kun…?
Makoto: Oh, really? But being so coddled can ruin anyone!
I wanted to really grow, I wanted to catch up to everyone… I wanted to shine, just like everyone else in Trickstar.
But you pushed my head down and kept me in the dark, insisting it was just to protect me.
Izumi: …Is that how you felt about it, Yuu-kun?
Makoto: Nope. It’s only now that I’ve noticed it’s all your fault I couldn’t shine.
Izumi: Yuu-kun, are you going to make it all my fault as well…?
Makoto: I just figured you would never get it unless I told you to your face. It’s a crucial time for Trickstar right now. Right in front of us is a huge event of unprecedented scale… SS.
I have to change too. I have to grow, way more than I ever have.
And to do that, I’ve got to break the curse you put on me.
Izumi: ……
Makoto: Izumi-san, I’ll ask you once more. Do you really think that I’m just your powerless “younger brother”?
That I’m some weak, precious little thing that you have to protect?
Hey… can you really still say that you’re above me?
---
< NIGHTMARE Chapter 9 || Masterlist || HARLEQUIN Chapter 1 >
