Requiem - Lux Aeterna Chapter 10
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shivalriesSeason: Winter
CW: Suicide mention (vague)
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[Auditorium: Live Show]
(A few hours later, during the first half of Repayment Festival)
Arashi: ♪~♪~♪
Leo: (…Huh, I’m pretty surprised.)
(Naru’s taken the King role for this round. Back when I looked over the plans for it, I thought it was strange then, too, but…)
(I see Naru’s really gone and used some unexpected strategies.)
(And here I thought we’d end up with a nice and chummy performance where we’re all working together, like something Ra*bits would do.)
(That’s the kind of person you are, after all, Naru. At least, that’s how you’ve always acted in front of me.)
(I never once got the slightest hint you’d even think of fighting dirty and going after victory with pure ambition.)
(You’ve always preferred having fun together over winning, and you’ve never once said otherwise.)
(Always dancing around with the grace and beauty of a dainty butterfly, you seemed too delicate to fly amid raging storms.)
(After I’d grown so used to the savagery of war, the simple idea of having fun together was so novel to me… I didn’t know what to make of it back when I’d just returned to Knights.)
(But you know, bit by bit, I’ve grown to really like it. Yeah, it’s like you got me to remember what idols are truly about—)
(Imagine lying sprawled on the ground, wounded and exhausted, and then you open your eyes to find a little flower sprouting right beside you - that's the kind of happiness I felt.)
(You’re right, Naru. Being an idol was always supposed to be something fun and filled with love.)
(That’s how it used to be for me. I’d copy the idols on TV and sing into my chopsticks as a microphone, while Ruka-tan smiled and clapped her little hands for me.)
(Her smile was as beautiful as a blooming flower. I wanted to see more smiles like that.)
(And then when I stood onstage and saw the smiles of the audience for the first time, I thought, “Hey, they look just like her!”)
(When it comes to having a happy and fun time, everyone’s the same.)
(With so many sad things happening one after another, at some point I forgot about that happiness.)
(But when I reach back along my earliest memories as an idol, you stand there right at the beginning...)
(With a smile on your face, like all of this is just so obvious to you. It caught me off-guard at first, but now I both envy and respect you…Naru.)
(You’ve made it all the way here, even though you’ve experienced the same kind of sad goodbyes I did, some even sadder. Even though you’ve been hurt by so much malice for so long.)
(You know that cenotaph, the one everyone seems to have forgotten about…? My name might’ve ended up engraved into it too.)
(Even with the potential to leave my mark on history, I could’ve been one of the many who lost sight of their dreams.)
(But now, I can safely say that’ll never happen. That’s because I learned how much it hurts the people who get left behind.)
(You’re strong, Naru. But even then you still hesitate to get involved with people.)
(After all, when you meet others, form friendships, and end up falling in love, only to have to say farewell in the end...it really hurts.)
(You know what that pain feels like, because fate tore someone away from you--the one now resting beneath the cenotaph.)
(You put on a brave face and kept insisting you were fine… But there’s no way you can be. You’re still just a teen, after all.)
(Your body and mind are still soft and fragile. I’m sorry I called you a coward and made you out to be a weakling.)
(I really don’t believe that at all… You’re stronger and kinder than anyone I know.)
(It seems like you’re pretty sensitive about that tough-sounding name of yours…)
(But I think your stormy name is just short for…a butterfly dancing elegantly amid heavy rains, or a beautiful, proud flower blooming in a fearsome thunderstorm. Probably, anyway.)
(Even as you weathered the storms of sadness, you never fell apart like I did. You only continued to dance beautifully. You’re a hundred times stronger than I am, so you’re much more fitting to be King.)
(And yet, you didn’t take the crown. Did you want to avoid being in a position of power?)
(I mean, yeah…with more power, there’s a bigger chance you’ll end up hurting someone without meaning to.)
(I get it. I really, really do. But, you know…I still think it’s a shame.)
(The constant efforts of the butterfly dancing through the storm would go unnoticed.)
(People out there don’t notice the little guys who just carry on quietly, at least not as much as we’d hope.)
(Drowned out by the clamor of those who speak the loudest, the quiet fluttering of a butterfly’s wings won’t reach anyone’s ears.)
(You’re strong and smart, and you have an open mind. You would wield power with care. Instead of getting crushed under its weight like I did, I know you’d use it right.)
(Maybe you’d make a couple mistakes at first, but it’s alright. You’d still win the hearts of everyone around you, and they’d come help you out. Including me, of course.)
(I know just how much love you’ve given me, so I’ve been waiting all this time for the perfect chance to return it right back to you.)
(I hope…this Requiem can be my repayment to you, too.)
Arashi: ♪~♪~♪
Leo: (Wahaha. Pushing forward to the front now, huh! I guess my taunts really got you fired up, Naru.)
(I’m surprised at how much Naru has been trying to stand out the most, right in center stage.)
(You engineered this whole performance to let yourself shine, huh.)
(It’s miles away from how you usually are, always trying to make us get along, and never going too wild with things.)
(But this is perfect, Naru! This is exactly what I wanted to see! Your true face, hidden behind the raging thunderstorm!)
(I mean, I never really understood what kinda person you were before!)
(How could I swear to lay down my life for someone I hadn’t really figured out yet?! I might’ve been able to work with someone like that for a while, but not forever!)
(I tried so many times to figure out who you truly were, but you always just fluttered away with the winds!)
(It was never enough, so I kept challenging you, urging you, approaching you… And now! I’ve finally caught a glimpse of who you are! So this is your true face, Arashi Narukami!)
(Show me more! Don’t hold back! Come straight at me, leaping right over the storm! Wahahahahaha! ☆)
~…♪
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< Lux aeterna Chapter 9 || Masterlist || Lux aeterna Chapter 11 >
CW: Suicide mention (vague)
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[Auditorium: Live Show]
(A few hours later, during the first half of Repayment Festival)
Arashi: ♪~♪~♪
Leo: (…Huh, I’m pretty surprised.)
(Naru’s taken the King role for this round. Back when I looked over the plans for it, I thought it was strange then, too, but…)
(I see Naru’s really gone and used some unexpected strategies.)
(And here I thought we’d end up with a nice and chummy performance where we’re all working together, like something Ra*bits would do.)
(That’s the kind of person you are, after all, Naru. At least, that’s how you’ve always acted in front of me.)
(I never once got the slightest hint you’d even think of fighting dirty and going after victory with pure ambition.)
(You’ve always preferred having fun together over winning, and you’ve never once said otherwise.)
(Always dancing around with the grace and beauty of a dainty butterfly, you seemed too delicate to fly amid raging storms.)
(After I’d grown so used to the savagery of war, the simple idea of having fun together was so novel to me… I didn’t know what to make of it back when I’d just returned to Knights.)
(But you know, bit by bit, I’ve grown to really like it. Yeah, it’s like you got me to remember what idols are truly about—)
(Imagine lying sprawled on the ground, wounded and exhausted, and then you open your eyes to find a little flower sprouting right beside you - that's the kind of happiness I felt.)
(You’re right, Naru. Being an idol was always supposed to be something fun and filled with love.)
(That’s how it used to be for me. I’d copy the idols on TV and sing into my chopsticks as a microphone, while Ruka-tan smiled and clapped her little hands for me.)
(Her smile was as beautiful as a blooming flower. I wanted to see more smiles like that.)
(And then when I stood onstage and saw the smiles of the audience for the first time, I thought, “Hey, they look just like her!”)
(When it comes to having a happy and fun time, everyone’s the same.)
(With so many sad things happening one after another, at some point I forgot about that happiness.)
(But when I reach back along my earliest memories as an idol, you stand there right at the beginning...)
(With a smile on your face, like all of this is just so obvious to you. It caught me off-guard at first, but now I both envy and respect you…Naru.)
(You’ve made it all the way here, even though you’ve experienced the same kind of sad goodbyes I did, some even sadder. Even though you’ve been hurt by so much malice for so long.)
(You know that cenotaph, the one everyone seems to have forgotten about…? My name might’ve ended up engraved into it too.)
(Even with the potential to leave my mark on history, I could’ve been one of the many who lost sight of their dreams.)
(But now, I can safely say that’ll never happen. That’s because I learned how much it hurts the people who get left behind.)
(You’re strong, Naru. But even then you still hesitate to get involved with people.)
(After all, when you meet others, form friendships, and end up falling in love, only to have to say farewell in the end...it really hurts.)
(You know what that pain feels like, because fate tore someone away from you--the one now resting beneath the cenotaph.)
(You put on a brave face and kept insisting you were fine… But there’s no way you can be. You’re still just a teen, after all.)
(Your body and mind are still soft and fragile. I’m sorry I called you a coward and made you out to be a weakling.)
(I really don’t believe that at all… You’re stronger and kinder than anyone I know.)
(It seems like you’re pretty sensitive about that tough-sounding name of yours…)
(But I think your stormy name is just short for…a butterfly dancing elegantly amid heavy rains, or a beautiful, proud flower blooming in a fearsome thunderstorm. Probably, anyway.)
(Even as you weathered the storms of sadness, you never fell apart like I did. You only continued to dance beautifully. You’re a hundred times stronger than I am, so you’re much more fitting to be King.)
(And yet, you didn’t take the crown. Did you want to avoid being in a position of power?)
(I mean, yeah…with more power, there’s a bigger chance you’ll end up hurting someone without meaning to.)
(I get it. I really, really do. But, you know…I still think it’s a shame.)
(The constant efforts of the butterfly dancing through the storm would go unnoticed.)
(People out there don’t notice the little guys who just carry on quietly, at least not as much as we’d hope.)
(Drowned out by the clamor of those who speak the loudest, the quiet fluttering of a butterfly’s wings won’t reach anyone’s ears.)
(You’re strong and smart, and you have an open mind. You would wield power with care. Instead of getting crushed under its weight like I did, I know you’d use it right.)
(Maybe you’d make a couple mistakes at first, but it’s alright. You’d still win the hearts of everyone around you, and they’d come help you out. Including me, of course.)
(I know just how much love you’ve given me, so I’ve been waiting all this time for the perfect chance to return it right back to you.)
(I hope…this Requiem can be my repayment to you, too.)
Arashi: ♪~♪~♪
Leo: (Wahaha. Pushing forward to the front now, huh! I guess my taunts really got you fired up, Naru.)
(I’m surprised at how much Naru has been trying to stand out the most, right in center stage.)
(You engineered this whole performance to let yourself shine, huh.)
(It’s miles away from how you usually are, always trying to make us get along, and never going too wild with things.)
(But this is perfect, Naru! This is exactly what I wanted to see! Your true face, hidden behind the raging thunderstorm!)
(I mean, I never really understood what kinda person you were before!)
(How could I swear to lay down my life for someone I hadn’t really figured out yet?! I might’ve been able to work with someone like that for a while, but not forever!)
(I tried so many times to figure out who you truly were, but you always just fluttered away with the winds!)
(It was never enough, so I kept challenging you, urging you, approaching you… And now! I’ve finally caught a glimpse of who you are! So this is your true face, Arashi Narukami!)
(Show me more! Don’t hold back! Come straight at me, leaping right over the storm! Wahahahahaha! ☆)
~…♪
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< Lux aeterna Chapter 9 || Masterlist || Lux aeterna Chapter 11 >
